Closing
Minutiae of my every day since 2004.

On mornings like this, as the sun rises to begin a new day, a heaviness weighs upon me. I squeeze a pillow under my blanket, then slowly leave my bed to turn off the air conditioning and make myself coffee. Paul lies on the living room floor, oblivious to my presence.
The tasks are many. I pray for strength to carry out the good work that God has set before me (Ephesians 2:10). When I turn on my cell phone, kept at bay in an empty room, I imagine a string of notifications, missed calls, and unread images. I let my phone be. I do not rush to it -- that bewildering machine that distracts and entertains -- but make time to grind the coffee beans and wait for the water to boil.
Dawn is my favorite time of the day. Full of possibilities and calm, it allows me to gather my thoughts. Gathering is necessary because my mind is a clutter, no matter what shelves I put up to compartmentalize and organize my thoughts. Friends know me as a morning person. I do my best thinking when everyone is asleep, and there is a cool freshness, albeit short-lived, around me. A few hours later, humidity and heat will prevail, but I will have been done with my prayer and meditation.
Perhaps people in my profession are familiar with -- and have grown used to -- the weight of stories of pain and suffering. Perhaps this is the "good work" set before me today, one in which I can honor God through quiet compassion. I need God's strength to get me through the day. I need a perspective that sees past the cancerous tumors.
Music helps. This morning I discover Johannes Brahms's Wie lieblich sind deine Wohnungen, Herr Zebaoth.
Wie lieblich sind deine Wohnungen,
Herr Zebaoth!
Meine seele verlanget und sehnet sich
nach den Vorhöfen des Herrn;
mein Leib und Seele freuen sich
in dem lebendigen Gott.
Wohl denen, die in deinem Hause wohnen,
die loben dich immerdar.
The English translation is:
How amiable are thy tabernacles,
O Lord of hosts!
My soul longeth, yea, even fainteth
for the courts of the Lord:
my heart and my flesh crieth out
for the living God.
Blessed are they that dwell in thy house:
they will be still praising thee.
The song longs for heaven, where God dwells, and there is no more pain and suffering.

The La Salle Creative Non-Fiction Workshop for doctors is up and running. On its sixth iteration -- yes, it has since taken on a life of its own since its launch during the pandemic -- we now have allied medical professionals (nurses and a radiation technologist), not just physicians. The combined demographics allows a richer discussion.
On our first session last night, we discussed promising works of creative non-fiction -- one in poetry, the other two in prose.
As always I learn a great deal from my co-panelists, Prof. Marjorie Evasco and Dr. Joti Tabula. Joti is this year's workshop director. This annual meeting is a reunion of sorts, the only time of the year when I'm able to talk about writing and language. I love the practice of close reading the text -- looking over and beyond the content of the piece, but in the micro details of language, the unseen ambitions and threads that weave through the literary draft. What we work on are our fellows' drafts. Calling them that -- "drafts" -- allows a kind of liberty to offer recommendations for revisions, pinpoint the strength of the piece, and introduce questions that the authors can further explore and develop.
Next week, we'll have two sessions to discuss the remaining creative non-fiction pieces.
October was a quiet time here: only two posts, compared to the bare minimum of four I had set out earlier this year. I simply had nothing worthwhile to write about, and life--outside life--happened.
My body feels, and demands, that the final quarter is, and should be, a reason for rest, a wrapping up of the year's ambitions, a kind of slowing down. The past months were inundated with tasks and to-do lists, with travels and getaways squeezed in between.
But November is here, reminding us that the year of our Lord 2025 is nearing its end.
I will devote my time to recharging for the busy December season. With no intention to participate in more activities than I can handle, I have every intention to enjoy my books, write some stories, and see old friends.
Where I come from, November means visits to the dead, not trick-or-treating. Halloween has recently become a fad in the cities, with children being made to dress up and demand candies. That all feels artificial to me. When I was a child, November was when I would go with uncles and aunties to the cemetery, hopping over graves--fearing that an arm would shoot up from the ground and grab my feet--and endless happy greetings with people I was required to "bless." Those were happy days!
When I drive to hospital to this morning, I expect heavy traffic near the cemeteries. Proximity permits remembrance. Soon I will write stories about my loved ones; creating stories allows me to have conversations with them. They come alive once more.
We will visit our dead later today, or tomorrow, in Marbel and Banga, though the usual practice has been to do the pilgrimage one day earlier, when the traffic is more tolerable.
Crafted by Bottled Brain, copyright 2004