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Don't worry about inspiration

Frank Herbert on the so-called writing block : A man is a fool not to put everything he has, at any given moment, into what he is creating. You're there now doing the thing on paper. You're not killing the goose, you're just producing an egg. So I don't worry about inspiration, or anything like that. It's a matter of just sitting down and working. I have never had the problem of a writing block. I've heard about it. I've felt reluctant to write on some days, for whole weeks, or sometimes even longer. I'd much rather go fishing, for example, or go sharpen pencils, or go swimming, or what not. But, later, coming back and reading what I have produced, I am unable to detect the difference between what came easily and when I had to sit down and say, "Well, now it's writing time and now I'll write." There's no difference on paper between the two.

Ramen weather

Keeping God's Word

In our local church we're asked to memorize bits of Scripture. At the end of the Sunday service, a person or a group of persons (such as cell/Bible study groups) is asked to recite the passion verse for the week. Someone had the idea of making Instagram posts out of them —they're beautiful! For instance, the passion verse this week is: View this post on Instagram John 14:23 (NASB 1977) 'Jesus answered and said to him, “If anyone loves Me, he will keep My word; and My Father will love him, and We will come to him, and make Our abode with him.' #passionfortheword #passionverse #higherrockchurch A post shared by Higher Rock Christian Church (@higherrockchurch) on Oct 11, 2018 at 5:38pm PDT Here are other passion verses . I love the typography, color, and most importantly, the message these convey.

The best of two worlds

Hari Balasubramanian's essay at 3QD resonates with me . It's a beautiful, beautiful piece that brings warmth to my heart and helps me make sense of the things I currently do. Like him, I'm in a very technical field of medicine (one may of course argue that it is both science and art, but the science part takes years of formal training, and a lot of objective multiple choice exams), but I spend a lot of time with the humanities, mostly literature, during my free time. I’ve always thought of myself as someone who is more drawn to the humanities than to math or the sciences. This can seem very puzzling to someone looks at my career details: degrees in engineering and a career in academia in a branch of applied mathematics called operations research. Even I am stumped sometimes – how did I get so deep into a quantitative field when all my life I’ve held that literature (literary fiction in particular), history and travel are far better at revealing something about the human c

Old Office Building, Manila

Manila is sometimes charming but is often frustrating.

I found Book 2 for 50 pesos!

After church last Sunday, my brother had his shoes cleaned, and I found myself lost in Booksale, the second-hand book store that holds, within its walls, a vortex that traps me and removes all sense of time and place. The short of it is: nawili ako . Imagine the thrill I had when I found a copy of Dune Messiah by Frank Herbert! For 50 pesos! My friend Juanchi Pablo introduced me to Dune, which I wrote about in 2014 . It is a book that opened my eyes to the joys of reading science fiction and fantasy. Paul Artreides's sister Alia is now grown up, a sarcastic, powerful, intuitive Reverend Mother, trained in the ways of the Bene Gesserit. Paul is now called the Muad'dib, the Emperor of the known worlds in the galaxy, and he has to confront opposition, intrigue, and mystery that comes with his powers.

Where are the great minds?

Dr. Butch Dalisay asks the question many of us often wonder about, when he browsed through copies of printed materials from the 50s: Where have all the great minds gone? I’m taking stock of my latest acquisition of old books and magazines, delivered to my office by a seller who seems to have hit upon a trove of scholarly materials from the 1950s and 1960s, very likely from the estate of one or two of that period’s leading academics. They include copies of the Diliman Review, a prominent journal of the University of the Philippines since the early 1950s; the University College Journal, from the early 1960s when UP still had a University College in charge of implementing its General Education Program for the student’s first two years; the Philippine Social Sciences and Humanities Review, established in 1929; and Comment, a liberal quarterly from the late 1950s. There’s a special issue of the Philippine Collegian from 1957 devoted solely to the topic of academic freedom. A unique bo

Art at Bahay ng Alumni

This earthly suffering, that heavenly comfort

A close friend tweeted about his friends who suffer: a brain tumor, a heart condition, an aggressive blood problem. It was a series of tweets about the bittersweet pilgrimage that we find ourselves in. My friend Paul went on to write, "Mortality is sobering. The nature of our stay here on Earth impresses insignificance." But the narrative of his reality brought him to Scripture—where else, after all, could we turn to? He alluded to the two thousand-year old letters of the apostle Paul—one of the most prolific biblical writers who shared the same name—who said that the hope of Christians is Christ Himself. This series of tweets resonated with someone like me who cares for patients with cancer. What my friend Paul wrote about felt personal; my family and I have experienced a great degree of suffering this year. I also know many who suffer—someone at the ICU, someone recently diagnosed with breast cancer, someone with some form of disease, terminal or otherwise. Christian

Jessica Zafra writes about Central Europe

Jessica Zafra releases her new book, Twisted Travels Central Europe, by the end of the month . I've been a fan of Ms. Zafra since high school, having read most of her essays in the Twisted series. Many of the essays here will probably resonate with me. I visited Prague in 2017 through a short train ride from Vienna and found it charming. I stayed at a comfortable hostel with young American backpackers, likely on their gap year. I hadn't been to a lot of places, but Prague stood out. A European tour is incomplete without it. Prague had a historical feel to it as if the brick walls, when goaded, could tell you many stories. Kafka lived in Prague, too, but I didn't get to sip coffee in the café named after him. Here are some photos during that trip.

Tubo Ko sells delicious sugarcane juice!

Sugarcane juice is a favorite. My brothers love it, too. On his first trip to Singapore, I told my younger brother Sean to taste one. There's not a lot of sugarcane juice in Manila, as far as I know, although Auntie Cecil, mother's best friend and soul-sister, told me it used to be available in Binondo in the 1980s. Imagine my surprise when I found out there's a booth in SM MegaMall that sells sugarcane juice. Tubo Ko is on the Upper Ground Floor, Mega A, near the escalators. The juice is squeezed out fresh from the sugarcane; it is then transferred to a mouth-watering plastic cup with ice. It is delicious, especially on very hot days! It's cheaper here (Php 75 for the large cup) than in Singapore or Hong Kong.

Joy and irritation

There are days when irritation gets hold of me rather quickly. The Christian thing to do is to overlook the offense. “Good sense makes one slow to anger, and it is his glory to overlook an offense” (Proverbs 19:11). But I hadn't really thought of overlooking minor offenses—which, to me, includes a person cutting the long queue, whiny children who play with their parents' phones in cafés, a waiter who overlooks my order, a friend who comes late for a lunch meeting—as something that brings joy. Scotty Smith e numerates five reasons why joy is found in overlooking an offense . When we overlook an offense, we can rejoice that we’re growing gospel sensibilities and tasting true glory. When we overlook an offense, we can rejoice that we’re starting to acknowledge our own sin. When we overlook an offense, we can rejoice that God’s grace and Spirit are becoming more operative, transforming powers in our lives. When we overlook an offense, we can rejoice that we’re gaining freed

Men deep in thought

via Instagram Round table discussion with Dr. Fernando on difficult oncologic cases—something I look forward to on Friday mornings! The men are deep in thought.

Two-thirds of the world's smokers live in these ten countries

HT: Gil Morgan, via Twitter What's interesting, too, is the percentage of smokers to non-smokers for every country.

Lincoln's handwriting

Image: Lincoln, Abraham. Abraham Lincoln papers: Series 1. General Correspondence. -1916: Abraham Lincoln, January 1849 A Bill to Abolish Slavery in the District of Columbia. January, 1849. Manuscript/Mixed Material. I always love a good handwriting, and I'm forcing myself to write neatly and legibly. Abraham Lincoln's handwriting is beautiful. See more of his writing specimens at the collection of the US Library of Congress . The papers of Abraham Lincoln (1809-1865), lawyer, representative from Illinois, and sixteenth president of the United States, contain approximately 40,550 documents dating from 1774 to 1948, although most of the collection spans from the 1850s through Lincoln’s presidency (1861-1865). Roughly half of the collection, more than 20,000 documents, comprising 62,000 images, as well as transcriptions of approximately 10,000 documents, is online. Included on this website in their entirety are Series 1-3 of the Lin

On the NELSON trial

I remember that in med school years ago, we were taught that there were no data to support screening for lung cancer. Screening involves detecting the early stages of disease among individuals who do not yet manifest it completely in order to reduce deaths from such disease. Studies have proven effectiveness of mammograms for breast cancer and Pap smears for cervical cancer, but, until recently, no screening procedure was recommended for lung cancer, which remains one of the hardest cancers to treat, given its aggressiveness. The NELSON trial, published in the New England Journal of Medicine in 2011 , determined if performing low dose CT scan compared to chest X-rays, actually reduced mortality among men and women at high risk for the development of lung cancer—i.e., at least 30-pack year smokers. It looked into 53,454 persons for many years and looked into the rates of development of lung cancer among these people. The study highlights the following results: There were 247 deat

Whisperings and impulses to sin

In The Doctrine of Regeneration , Stephen Charnock argues that man cannot do anything to save himself. Adam had the greatest advantages human nature, in a natural way, was capable of; he was created with a fullness of reason. But how long do we converse with sense, which fastens upon temptations before we come to a use of reason! After we are come to some smatterings of reason, and a growth in it, as we think, what whisperings and impulses to sin do we feel! What an easiness to embrace incentives, a deafness to contrary admonitions! What languishing, velleities, and palsy desires at best, for that which is good; a might most and darkness upon our understandings, irresolution in our wills? How can we with all these fetters be able of ourselves to put into a better state, and act against nature, which is impossible any creature can do but by a superior power!

Broadway musicals greet us in celebration of the Nurses’ Week. Cheering for Team Medicine!

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There’s nothing quite like Christian hope. This was written on a wall, erected in celebration of the Mental Health Week.

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Kid writes

A boy writes the details on a raffle ticket at my favorite Dunkin' (not Dunkin' Donuts anymore), the branch in front of Taft Avenue where I often have coffee after alighting from the train, before seeing patients. The boy keeps asking his mother what to write; it is likely his first time, and his mother pushes him to write on. I hope he grows up to a smart man with excellent handwriting. Scenes like these warm my heart.

Favorite time of the day

My favorite time of the day is dawn. I just took the photo a minute ago, straight from the balcony. An exciting week is ahead, with the Philippine Society of Medical Oncology (PSMO) annual convention beginning Wednesday, culminating in a fellowship night where I'll be dancing to the tune of Masskara Festival music. Praise be to God for another day, another week.

Her father's stories

My friend's sister writes about her father's stories . That I didn’t know much about my father comes as no surprise—I’m traditionally subservient, and I didn’t grow up asking a lot of questions. Among my earliest memories of my dad was him coming home from a long flight and handing me a red umbrella as pasalubong. I vaguely remember my mother bringing me to the hangar and my father asking me if I still remembered him. I don’t know how these memories even exist, but they are there, as poignant as the aftershave my father wore that day. You write beautifully, Ate Kate Pedroso!

Dean Francis Alfar's short story collection

Next on my reading list: Dean Francis Alfar's A Field Guide to the Roads of Manila and Other Stories . A Field Guide to the Roads of Manila is a map to the worlds of award-winning fictionist Dean Francis Alfar's imagination. The real and the unreal intersect in these fifteen stories of fantasy, science fiction and horror, and celebrate the wonder of speculative fiction. The Palanca Awards of Literature are out! Dr. Ronnie Baticulon, a neurosurgeon from PGH, won an award for his essay . Congrats, Sir Ronnie!

John Calvin shows the beauty of the gospel

After a year, I finished reading volumes 1-3 of John Calvin's The Institutes of the Christian Religion . I mostly read it in my Kindle during my morning commute to work, a ritual that affords me the chance to read works of literature outside of my standard readings in oncology. The Institutes now belongs to my list of favorite books of all time, along with Augustine's Confessions (which was often quoted by Calvin). Calvin's main thesis is justification by faith alone through Christ alone. It is the "alone"--the exclusivity of faith, the rejection of good works (or good works with faith), as a means to salvation--that creates the major doctrinal difference between Calvin's faith and Roman Catholicism. It is so big a difference that Protestantism came into being, a movement that was ushered in by a renewed meditation of what Scriptures had originally meant, a deeper understanding of the love and mercy of God through Jesus Christ, a humbling realization of